All of us, have insecurities. Hindi ba? One of the most popular insecurity is yung PHYSICAL APPEARANCE. Aminin man natin o hindi, say the story of my close friend that we will call, "Janjan." He was the youngest of 3 siblings, and truth is, he is born fat.
During elementary days, he got involved on bullying, pero hindi nagpatalo ang batang ito. Feeling nya, sa laki nya, kaya nya. 'Pag inasar sya, napipikon siya, at lalaban sya. Naghahamon pa ng suntukan. One time, he fought with one of his classmates after class. Sa sobrang na-bully siya, he thought, he can fight anyone, not knowing hindi pala.
Chapter II: "FIGHT!"
High School days. Sino ba naman ang hindi makakalimot sa high school days niya? Ibahin nyo si Janjan. During the first half of his HS years, naka-experience din siya ng bullying. Nung second year siya, napunta sya sa last section. Some of us, it's a frightening experience. Grabe ang inabot nya, at dahil nga feeling nya matapang siya, inaawat na sila ng adviser nila kasi patol siya ng patol--to the point na sa loob ng room siya nakikipag-away. Nagsumbong pa sa tatay.
Third year--the happiest high school year--was his change. During summer (bago mag 3rd year), gym to the max sya. AS IN. Health condition (yung starting High blood) 'yung reason. Pero iba 'yung step niya. Bago kasi matapos ang sophomore life, may nagustuhan siyang babae. Off nga lang, kasi mataba siya noon. Then, he started courting..
Chapter III: "Breakeven (Falling To Pieces) - The Script"
Ang sarap ma-inlove. Umamin kayo? Naranasan din ni Janjan yan. Out of peer and environment and "USO" pressure, I guess? Relationships dito, dyan, 'yung ang nakikita niya. He thought, "Ano kaya ang feeling nun? Ma-experience nga.." Then he became friends with a girl we'll call "Yabie."
He started sending her home (kahit sa sakayan lang home na 'yun sa kanya), being with her sa recess, looking for her anytime. Until he realized, may mga "karibal" siya. Dahil he's on the wrong track, poot at galit ang naramdaman niya. Kasi close si Yabie and yung ibang guy. He started GM-ing (or friendster post pa yata) about a hateful sentence to the girl and the guy--not realizing na mahu-hurt si girl. Nasayang ang relationship, and it's broken.
Then, his girl best friend that we'll call "Jary" ang naging sandalan niya. Literally na sandalan, na naging reason ng pag-fall ni Janjan sa kanya. Grabe, the relationship na nabuo nila, even his best friends na kasama niya sa band (musician nga pala si Janjan by the way) naging close sa friends ni "Jary" to the point na naghangout sila sa bahay ni Jary.
Until he realized, may gustong iba si Jary. And nagmaktol to the max si Janjan. He thought, "SHE'S THE ONE." Pero 'yun pala, she's gone.
Until the next years, ligaw kung ligaw si Janjan..sa niligawan ng best friend niya before na hinarana niya sa mga ka-batch nung girl, hanggang sa ka-batch niya na hinatid niya sa bahay kahit strict ang parents ni girl, not knowing that all his "efforts" are leading him to nowhere.
Chapter IV: "COLLEGE!"
Then college came. Si selos este Janjan 'di tumigil sa panliligaw. May classmate siya, ligaw niya. Kaso, kasalanan niya na nga, siya pa galit, to the point na sinisiraan niya yung girl. Grabe ang pride (that's what builds up when you seek a wrong relationship at a wrong time). Pero napagod na siya. He focused on studying na lang. Maganda ang naging decision niya. Kaso nga lang, may bagsak, pero he strived pa din.
Chapter V: "The Right Direction"
Until one night, at a play, he got to know the One who truly loves him. The voice, the love, he felt it. Eto 'yung true love na sinasabi nila. Dahil nga musikero siya at mahilig siya sumama sa gigs, he got involved in an accident before this. And this was his turning point. The voice who called, is our savior Jesus Christ.
He realized, with Christ, we all have everything. You will find yourself in Christ's love. You will know your true identity with Jesus. That relationship-to-relationship is nothing compared to the everlasting relationship with Christ. He realized, trusting God in faith and love and hope is the most important. God holds our life, and leads us to the right way.
His insecurities are gone, his frustration are left behind. As he put his trust in Christ, he is secured.
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What's his point sa pagsabi ko ng story niya? That we are all made wonderful by God. It's written, "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well" (Psalm 139:14).
I saw this post on Facebook of my good friend, Gianne, "The only one who can truly satisfy the human heart is the One who made it." Indeed, God knows how to make you happy, for what He makes, He knows how to fix. All we have to do is surrender to Him. :)
Walang pangit na ginawa si God. Mataba, payat, bata, matanda, kalbo o bungi, may sakit o wala, ginawa tayo ni God. He never makes even a single mistake. Some people are made with disabilities, but understand that GOD'S POWER IS MADE PERFECT IN WEAKNESS (2 Cor. 12:9).
The more we are persecuted, the more CHRIST WILL HELP US. Just have a relationship with Him. He wants to have a relationship with you. :)
Appreciate the life Christ gave us. Beloved Reader, You are a prince. You are a princess. Real happiness comes from the inside, not on what's outside. :)
We are called to be his sons and daughters. Nothing can separate us from His love. :)
"Always keep in your heart and mind that you are a princess (and a prince)."
- Kuya Vinci Glodove
No insecurities. Just God's love. :)
And by the way, si Janjan, is the one who made this blog. The one writing to you. He would like to thank you for reading. Thank you, and God bless you. :)
Glory and honor are all to God who makes us feel secured, and gives us the true love the world cannot give! :)
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